Today is Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness Day. – October
15, 2015
Yes, I was aware there was such a day before, but today,
this October 15th, means more. You see, we are “the 1 in 4.”
1 in 4 pregnancies do not end with a beautiful warm baby
wrapped in his or her mother’s arms. 1 in 4 pregnancies end in heartbreak. I
never thought we would be the 1 in 4. We are young, just 25 and 26 when Kylie
was born with her soul in heaven. We are healthy, active, and ready for a baby,
but still, we are 1 in 4.
I don’t write these blog posts so that people will feel
sorry for us. I write so that anyone who will listen will know about our sweet
Kylie; our daughter who never took a breath on this earth but that we were
lucky enough to hold, kiss, and hug for a few short moments of our lives here
on earth. I share our story so that others can see that there is joy after loss
and so that other families who walk through this journey will feel that it’s
okay to share their story too.
Today, I read so many stories of others who lost their
children. I feel their pain, I feel their hope, and I love to read the stories
they share to honor their children. I can’t help but imagine Kylie playing with
all those other beautiful children in Heaven. We held Kylie in our arms 5 ½
months ago. Our hearts are healing, and I can truly, finally say that I am
joyful each morning. God has been incredible to us, surrounding us with His
great love as we wake each day.
I feel so grateful for the love and support of our close
friends and family, but often I feel very alone in my grief. This loneliness becomes
less with time, but in my most difficult moments, I feel incredibly lonely. I
find comfort in the posts I read today that other mothers with sweet angels
like Kylie feel just as lonely as I.
If you are reading this, thank you. Thank you for supporting
us and reading about our sweet Kylie Ryann, honoring her tiny life. I ask that
you take a brief moment to pray for all of the families who are walking through
the difficult journey of losing a sweet baby. Please pray for comfort, peace,
healing, and hope. I know that God hears these prayers. He heard your prayers
as you prayed for us 5 ½ months ago and each prayer since that day.
Sometimes it’s difficult to remember in the saddest of
times, but, “Rejoice always, pray continually, give thanks in all
circumstances; for this is God’s will for you.” - 1 Thessalonians 4:15
If you have been following our story, you will know that I see our sweet daughter in the sunrise each morning. I find so much peace in this time of day.
